I say this because it is true. I say this because you need to hear it. I say this because I need to let it out. I say this to you. I say from the heart.
Ever since I can remember you were by my side. Very few memories did I enjoy without you knowing about it. At my strongest you celebrated with me, and at my weakest you're still by my side. Blood surely is thicker than water but I'm not worthy to call you my brother.
Ever since I can remember you were by my side. Very few memories did I enjoy without you knowing about it. I had dreams. You knew about them. I still have dreams and you know about them. I've made choices, some bad some good but its only the bad ones that we choose to acknowledge.
Few years ago I made a choice, a big decision. I made it because I believed in it. I believed that I had to make it. So I did, I made that choice. I ignore all voices of reason, for at that time, my inner voice was the only voice of reason. I took no advice from anyone else, including you for I knew better at that time, or so I thought. Your support has never change, it has never came short or came doubtfully. For that bro, I thank you.
I from when we were young, I've promise you the world. For that's what I believed we deserve. I still believe that but have very little to show for it. We were not suppose to be at this place in life. I could not lift you up as promised. I could not lift myself up as hoped. I have failed on my promises. I have failed you, but I'm not yet done fighting. Don't bet against me yet, this horse still has a kick or two in it. Hang on bro, this is not the end. This is not my end. This is not our end.
You often described me as strong but quick to anger. I speak of me as I never hurt emotionally. You even go as far as to say you wish you were as strong as me. That's all not true bro, I wish I was as strong as you. Is not that I don't get disappointed, heartbroken or few weak or down. Not, its just that anger is a much easier emotion to display. I envy you man. After all you have been through, you still standing. Smiling and you forgave those who brought you pain. I'm not that strong. You are more of a man than I'll ever be. I thank God I have you in my life.
With this quote I close, "My head is bloody, but unbowed." - Invictus by William Ernest Henley
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